IM NOT SURE .....WHY PEOPLE HAVE TO DIE...

SOOO, THERE HAS BEEN A LOT GOING ON LATELY. I WOULD LIKE TO START BY SAYIN PANCREATIC CANCER SUCKS ASS. THERE IS SOME BAD NEWS... MY FATHER IN LAW PASSED AWAY WITH THAT HORRIBLE CANCER! HE WAS SO FULL OF LIFE AND HE WAS SNATCHED FROM ALL OF US IN LESS THAN A MONTHS 1/2.

WE ALL ALSO BLAME THE HOSPITALS INCOMPITANCES WITH ALL THEIR DOOGIE MD'S THAT WORKED ON HIM.

HOW IS IT POSSIBLE THAT A PERSON WHO GETS CHECKED REGULARLY ON A MONTHLY BASIS HAS NO SIGN OF THE CANCER IN THEIR BLOOD WORK ! ITS JUST UNBELEIVABLE TO ME. JUST RIDICULOUS REALLY. HE WAS A GREAT MAN, AND HE WAS HONORED IN THAT WAY AT HIS PREOCESSION - TO THE BURIAL . WE PLAYED HIS FAVORITE SONG IN THE WORLD : FRANK SINATRA -I DID IT MY WAY. AND WE CRIED HARDER. HE HAD MANY VIEWERS, ATTENDEES, PEOPLE WHO LOVED HIM AND HIS FAMILY. ITS BEEN HARD FOR HIS FAMILY, BUT THEY HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A VERY CLOSE-NIT FAMILY AND THEY WILL GET THROUGH THIS TIME.

ITS REALLY CRAZY GOING TO HIS HOUSE N NOT SEEING HIM THERE. I SWEAR IT FEELS LIKE HE JUST WENT OUT FOT COFFEE AND CIGERRETTES OR SOMETHING. ITS AN EMPTINESS THATS ALMOST EERIE. I WONDER IF ANY OF YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I MEAN....

HE WAS ONLY 62 AND THAT WAS 62 YEARS TOO YOUNG. I VE KNOWN HIM FOR AS LONG AS I HAVE BEEN WITH MY BF. AND I AM PROUD TO HAVE MET SUCH A CHARMING, LOVING, N PEACEFUL MAN. HE WAS ALWAYS GOOD TO ME AND LOVED ME BEING WITH HIS SON. AND HE CONSIDERED ME A PART OF THE FAMILY AND ALWAYS DEFENDED ME. MY FAVORITE TIMES WERE SPENT ON THE PORCH OR ON THE COUCH LISTENING TO HIS FANTASTICS STORIES THAT IVE HEARD OVER AND OVER AGAIN, BUT HES SO MUCH FUN TO LISTEN TO THAT YOU NEVER GET TIRED OF THEM.

LOSING SOMEONE SUCKS. LIFE GOES ON EH? IF WE ARE MEANT TO DIE THAN WHY DOES IT HURT THIS MUCH? WHY DO WE SUFFER? I BELIEVE ITS ANOTHER WAY OF SAYING THAT SAYING THAT EVERYONE KNOWS : YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOUVE GOT TILL ITS GONE. BUT WHAT IF YOU DO KNOW WHAT YOU GOT? AND YOU DONT WANT IT TO BE GONE?

CYCLE OF LIFE? REALLY? CYCLE OF LIFE: BORN, GROW, SURVIVE, AND DIE. EVERYTHING IS DEFINITE AND YET ITS NOT. ALL THE MATERIALISTIC THINGS IN THE WORLD MEAN NOTHING IN THE END. BECAUSE WHEN YOURE GONE....YOUR GONE, AND THE ONES WHO LOVE YOUARE THE ONES THAT ARE LEFT BEHIND TO MOURN YOU.

I DONT REALLY KNOW WHAT IM NOT SURE WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY...I GUESS IM JUST VENTING...WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TO DIE?

THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU HAVE, TAKE NOTHING AND NOONE FOR GRANTED, WHEN THEIR GONE THEIR GONE, AND ONLY THEIR MEMORY IS LEFT BEHIND...

THINK ABOUT IT,
KIKIMIA